sigh sign

Flashbacks of memories how we started this last year
everything went well, everything is good
not long ago we know there's the problem
i thought we solve it but still it occurs
the game hasn't really started
but you said you are tired
you are really tired..

What's wrong with you ?
Where's your driving passion ?
where is the maturity that i always see in you ?
We are still very far from destination yet
What's going on with you ?

You may have your personal issues
but running away won't help
its not like the end of the world
where's your responsibility ?
do you know what are you doing ?

Its your own decision
or rather i did make my decision
its what you said today that
i find no other encouraging reasons
that we should tolerate
that we should help
that we should understand
that we should..hold on

someone out there still believes in you
someone out there still finding ways for you
someone out there still waiting for your news
but you..
your excuse is loose
you gave up too soon
you lost yourself

I might be harsh but im not heartless
you can say im selfish and stubborn
but there is just no more room for drama
i dunno when you gonna sway away again
no point coming back and sigh again
there is once and there will always be again
by the time isnt that the same cycle again ?

i look forward and move on
assumming you were not on the same boat anymore
i wear the mask of unthreaten and steady
deep inside im pretending
like its no big deal

i should be sleeping actually
i can't sleep and decided to write this
maybe it is starting to sink in
above dissappointment and stress
im... sad

stupid pimple

ooooo...this ugly shits of bump
keep getting it around my nose these days...

damn pain ehhhh....duhhhh...

same boat

sometimes im harsh on you..
sometimes i push you too hard
sometimes im not qualify to judge you to start with

sometimes im being shit..
sometimes you have to bear with me

sometimes you surprised me
sometimes you dissappointed me
and most of the time you amazed me

how you handle things
how you improve drastically

because i never deny your ability
coz you have always prove to me
to you i put trust
coz we are on the same boat
share the same passion
hope it will always be

Most of all, thanks for bearing with me always


I think i haven't did enough yet as a friend..

happy birthday, fatty.

I was at a place where you have to shout to others for them to hear you

a stage full of dressed up good looking people
a glass of barcardi Lemon Coke after sooo long
a nicotine menthol stick on my finger
an eehhyooo ehhyooo music track mixer

a glance of sexy
a smile of cheeky
a sip to heaven
a move of actions

wow...its been a while.. !!

absolutely zero

lights out
playing absolutely zero
by jason mraz

got in the mood
mood to be alone
mood to think
mood to feel emo
for this short 3 mins

feeling
fucking lazy
but im not lost
but fucking unmotivated

work piled up
late night staying up
acne breaking out
hungry empty stomach

I need my dose
dose of distortions
dose of writings
dose of screamings
dose of sweats
dose of craps
and i like that

Don't ask me don't nag me
Don't make assumptions please
what is here please stay here
else i won't bother

here i can be me
out there i won't be like this
thats the purpose of my blog writing
this is my stress relieve
i wonder if everyone is like this

You should know who i mean
You should know what i mean

3 lights away

The long awaited puff..
it feels nice and cool

first time in slazh
couldn't care less

company in crime
surrounded by dark trees

a sense of float
a moment of high

3 ticts away

shouldn't be waited

truth or dare
beers and 100

another night of crazy
a night with kinky shits

I should be working
I ended up working

though
i weren't grumbling
not really complaining
i'm procastinating

Break

I forced myself to finish the chee cheong fun...
I was waiting...

I was kinda busy
when it came in

I couldn't finished even a double cheeseburger for dinner...
but i thank you for being you

Friday
my mind keep drifting away
sorting myself out
distract myself away

the scars were always there
reminds me that the past is real...

Everything will be ok back again
the mended and broken parts will be fix soon

as long as i don't touch the knobe
as long as i hide away the keys

Im happy
and i wish you happy

:)

The friend..12.04

The friend who play football dribbling and passing on the street road with me, that was crazy
The friend who i fetch with my ol'skool bike to everywhere, countable accidents
The friend who i broke his glass but tiukao me like hell when i offered to pay him back
The friend who always gives me shit, and helps me in deep shit
The friend who my parents only knew of my friend back then
The friend who sometimes force me to go vegetarian with him in canteen
The friend who indirectly made me lost my first girlfriend
The friend who i were asked by his family to inform him the first place of his mother's departure
The friend who tried to change my mind when i decided to leave science stream
The friend who i indirectly screwed up his sister's wedding pictures
The friend who was never lucky so far in relationship
The friend who brighten up my every birthdays
The friend who flew away for the 4th year
The friend who always support and encourage me in everything

The friend of my best childhood memories...

"hey, still remember wat day is 2day?my bro's birthday! as a friend of him, hav you wish him yet ?if not, do it now lo ! help me ask the others to wish him also. k ?"


And...
i
fucking
forgot
your
birthday

If not of your brother reminding me with sms on your birthday night, i would have ..seriously...forgot.

What kind of friend am i.

I feel like a pimp

Bullshits !

Tonight i have the most crappiest sessions with the gals, the couple and the friend. Guessed i must be high from the nasi lemak or 100 plus. The debatings, the shoutings, the pinchings, the laughters, the echoes, well..nothing important...all bullshit...hahahahahhaa..

Or must be because i won the single match tonight..wuahahahaha... !
And thanks YL for the round treat..hahahaha..seems like quite some free meals these weeks, Lotus on fatty, BahKutTeh on KW, and today..yea yea...but im still broke though...

They must be surprised when they hear me sing chinese songs tomolo ! kekekee...yea..what else but ktv..hahahaa..

Here comes the weekend, benjoy !

Drye's Jammin Session.2

The jammin session that day...i was sick...but nothing could stop me..hahahahaaa...

Everything
The first jam, too slow, guitar and bass off tune, can't hear wei loon's kick, arrangement abit out, my vocal sucks, stopped halfway. Retune, reconstruct, after the 2nd rejam, everything starts to come in piece ! by the time we rehearse it for the 4th time, i no longer think about whether the bass will go off key, whether the drum will sounds weird, nice ! maybe just a bar or 2 of drums that wei loon cant remember how i really compose it in the demo..nvm..next time !

Time
The first jam, fuck...it was awesome ! damn...it wasn't a problem for wei loon since we jammed this before the last time. But for Taik, the bassist, everything he played was ...cool..damn !

Possibility
Nice ! besides the first time we stopped halfway because the bridge was confusing, the rejam again was ..complete ! hahahahahaa... except maybe just figure out that wei loon got lost in some parts dunno when to go into chorus..i guessed so..hahahahaha..you da man !

Fallin Apart
I think this is my personal favourite song. 3 attempts and we stopped, coz Taik admit he couldn't get what was i playing from the demo or from the tabs i gave, until now seeing how i play it. While Wei Loon being forgetful again..hahahaa..well..i dun blame, it was a kinda progressive rock song to start with.

My Way
Didn't thought we will jam this song, coz it wasn't in our jammin list actually. But it just hit off like that, everything...just like that..hahahaha..damn nice feeling though !

I still got quite some complaints though. Like the sound system, the drumkick sound, the mic stand, the mic volume, the studio guitar amps, and the 2 other bandmates that couldn't make it. But practise makes perfect, i couldn't ask more for the first jammin sessions with Taik, the bassist. And i believe Taik can play alot better adding in his own style the next sessions, coz he is just playing according to my tabs for this time.

KF : hey..still interested to jam with that bassist fella ?
WL: Of course. He is the best one we jammed before so far.

I agreed..hahahahah

Looking forward for more jammin sessions. And please, i hope i don't fall sick on that very day again...duhhh !

Ps. We saw you that day. Either you are blind, or you didn't saw us, or you just overlooked us..coz we were just 2 tables away and you passed by us twice...hahahaha...well, i didn't greet you also to start with, doesn't matter la...dunno..dun care.

Blackie

She cried tonight, midnight
It was weird..it seldom happened.
I went down to her, to check on her.
She was alright, but she is crying,
she look so sad, why...
I know why..
she want to get out from the kernel..
but mom always put her in the kernel in the night...
don't ask me why

Her eyes are wet
transparently glowing...
heavy breathingly
looking at me...
i keep smiling and saying
"sleep la...sleep la"

then i remember the old sayings..
if you rub the tears of a dog onto your own eyes...
you can see the "other" world...

She usually don't cry,
tonight she does,
and there's the tears..
but no..i didn't took the risk...
crazy..hahahaha...
my own imagination could oledi kill me

tonight i felt pity
i left her out from the kernel
im a good boy
but for sure mom gonna nag me tomolo

Hopefully the night is still the same
as long as she don't bising

Best presentation

Today i had the best "presentation" ever...i guessed so..

Maybe i was sick and weak, maybe i just dunwan to start the fire knowing me, i will just shoot everything out. Maybe it was vc, who played the cards so smartly and carefully, which makes me presented it in the end in the most general ways. Seriously, i was surprised myself.

Things that supposed to said, is said.
Things that supposed to be done is done
Things that supposed to be discuss, is discuss

problems are clear
misunderstandings are clear
direction clear
major role clear

I think it does scratched the match fire a bit. But it didn't spread off just like that. Everything under control, i made my point, he made his point, so does he.

Everyday we learn something, today i learnt :

Outsiders always knows clearer whats happening between. When you see them, you are the outsiders ; when they see you, they are the outsiders.

Water Balloons

I know everyone knows that night is gonna be a fun crazy nite for all of us.
Everything well prepared...the belons are readily loaded with water, the airgun is armed, the cake is nicely cream whipped.

The plan abit spoiled when the birthday boy dinner was cut short, and saw us preparing the water belons. But there was no turning back for him...wuahahahhaha

The supposed plan is to bring the water belons over to a nearby padang to play and celebrated. But dunno who started throwing balloons at KW..... and..----- war starts !!!

15 minutes of war... KW avoiding and running..and he slipped and fell...yea..wet floor. Knee cap hitted, pain, care, cant stand, end up at the nearest clinic.

Party ends...just like that ! hahahahaha...

What a birthday present to you, KW :)

Well, anyway, we make him cut the cake the next day and belanja us yumchar. Yea, his knee is ok the next day.

thanks

Wooo..thanks all for the supports and motivations. Alot of unexpected smses and msgs ...really really unexpected..appreciate that

Didn't know many of my friends actually take the time to download and listen to all the songs. The power of MSN..hahahaha...Felt kinda weird knowing people heard my sucky vocals..hahahaha...and of course..screamings..

But guess this all started off with the acoustic "song for sale" song. Among all the compliments and critics, my best satisfaction was knowing that it actually inspired some of my friends to do things they wanted.

I wrote that song for someone ?
well..maybe..subconsciously..to someone that i once really care for..
The lyrics ? hahaa..like i said..i just sang out just like that..no proper lyrics..just the chorus

Doesn't matter where im going
for as long as you can hear me
its the best thing i 've ever had
for as long as you can make me real

Write more acoustic songs like that? yea..i will considered that if i found a great vocalist..hehe
Write chinese songs ? i dunno..never tried..hahahahaha. I scare it will turn out and sounds like English ..hahahah..

But like the title itself..i wrote that song..is actually to really sell that song...to whoever that interested to buy it..ahhahaha...

I feel motivated. Thanks alot.

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

k...gonna rest a while. Whipped cream+balloon+flour+water+airgun party tonight !!!! hope the girls wear white..ahhahahahahahahaa...

FEEL

Was yumcharing together with Ah Loong tonight. He shared this funny story.

He have this girl staff in his bridal shop ( family business ). And this girl got a boyfriend. For the first few weeks (or months i forgot), the boyfriend will drive his car and going a few circles around the bridal shop area after sending the girlfriend to work..

When asked why do he do that ?

"i drive rounding around your shop, so that you will FEEL that im guarding and protecting you"

WTF....... ?????

8

8 met
on a heart shape day
2 were my old's
the rest are new

from planned sushi
to a waited more than an hour
but food never arrived cafe
to a dim sum restaurant

thought was a one night stop
ended up almost every weekend
every other day
for sure every wednesday

different backgrounds
funny stories
fresh characters
balance gender
caring and laughter

funnyhow it all connected
despite the connected area
and the circle is growing out 8
where were they before this ?
where were i before this ?
how were we before this ?

Connect - disconnect - reconnect

make believe.

Hgih

After few days practises, finally managed to jump and play and sing with my GRX40, hanging as low as till below my waist..looks so much cooler ! wuahahahaha.. now i need a mic stand ..!

Realtek sound card not nice lehh..i want back my VIA... !!!! @#$!%!$!#@!

Jammin Jammin Jammin ... can't wait... !

9 more picture messages in 4 days time..shit shit shit !!

Banyak ammendments...die die die !

life getting back to ol' batman...ooo..not very good le !

Parents cold war ends... finally mannnn !

air cond filter changeddd ... i get cold now !!

Washed my car after the rain ...so please don't rain !

3000km passed service point ..how how...shit..i gonna kena from my dad later...

hey hey..you must be sleeping, waiting for your reply ...hope you get the job yea !!

Ooh oohh..another Flash again...makan makan...thanks thanks !

Sorry ah the recent face for Jusco Aeon model, sure you must be dissappointed leh..hope to see you soon anyway..hehehe !

Zeon Zeon Zeon...so headache ....Ganozhi Ganozhi ... waiting for your positive reply

SRC cepat call back when cik Jan is not around !! im busy leh..hahahaha..jk !

I threw away burned back work cd ! lucky Jo is still around !!

Pass pass goal tomolo .. yeah
drop shot smash after tomolo.. yeah

Ice Age 2 .. yeah !

Genting..come come...! but don't get fooled on the day !

The N times he borrowed 50 bucks from me unreturned...haha..but its alrite...500, 5000 bucks or more also i will borrow or help , coz i will always love him !

k....time to sleep..1000000% will be waken up by 0122248512 tomolo ! hahahahaa...:)


Good morning everyone !!! thanks for readin my bullshit..im a zombie jorrrr...shit..hungry...dun care la..not the first time....nite. nite.

Song For Sale

Finally after one week...my PC is rebornnnn...

Thought was the RAM problem..but after finally brought over for checking..the harddisk was ok, but its my motherboard problem..sudah almost gone burst. Must be overheat or something, coz the chips all look like sudah kembangg..like almost gonna burst like that...luckily i brought it over for service in time..else..i really dunno what will happened next..

Changed my motherboard and finally everything is up working again. Running on 768 now, 256mb faster than my previous speed. But my old 512MB ram will be coming back soon :) coz previously i thought was my RAM spoilt, so i brought in for a change, ( FYI, Kingston RAM got lifetime warranty ), and the computer guy, which is my bro's friend, was kind enough to borrow me a 256 RAM for temporary use. So..imagine i've been running on 256 for the past 1 week...really slow lor...one Photoshop and one Illustrator application enough to make my computer freeze...hahaha..

I bought a new 512 Kingston RAM. Together with the friend's 256RAM, running on 768 now. Hopefully my old 512 RAM will be back by next week, so i can run on 1 GIG RAM, after returning the 256..i sounds a bit jakun, coz i know memang alot of people have been running on 1 gig RAM or more for some times..hahahaha...

Sometimes...money can save you some problems and makes your life easier..hahaha..or like Frisha said, bring happiness to your pc..hahahaha..

Hit my walkman record button, and recorded this one song live just like that, spontaneously, on the spot just like that..hahaa, during the time when my pc cant even boot. No drums and bass, so just acoustic..song for sale....

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

support support a bit..ahhahahaa

Blue Screen

aiyooo..please laa..enough of blue screen jorrrrr....
leave me alone for a while...
let me finished up my work for tomorrow's deadline at least...
be good to me lah...tolong tolonggg...


my RAM is giving me problem. Besides, i think my almost 3 years old desktop is ..old.

Thinking of the money i need to spend to upgrade my stuffs...

duhhhh...of all the time but this time !

The god must be playing with me ! else the god must be crazyy..hahaha..